i wanna be a movie

wow finally writing, god gave me so much. yet im still very unhappy. seriously god. i guess a good taste of my own medicine was needed. i miss you, im feeling the most far from you i ever have. missing my home, my friends even missing the old drunk depression. everyone knows this feel but i just feel lonely even though i planned for different on these travels. i miss summers in kelowna with katri her momma and even kerry. never thought id miss it so much. i even miss marley and especially marilyn. omg and kaitlyn and dave even, how upsetting . for my own good , or for even worse