It's been a while
Can you believe it. Everything I wrote about God healing me, came true. I went through a coma, seizure and mental breakdown. I almost died. I shouldn't be alive.
I was pretty much reborn. Not joking. A second chance at life, it was definitely not my time to go. I came out of my coma a completely different person. so spiritually filled. I'm still shocked im back on earth after that. I still struggle with things. but I came to realize that no matter what happens im always backed up by the holy spirit and my guides. what a blessing.
I don't know what it is but I am ment to be on this earth. in this life. for a very big reason. even though I reject the truth of it. I wasn't aloud to take an easy way out. I've learnt that im here not only to learn and survive as an individual but I am here as a whole a part of this earth for greater good. Something beyond myself, that is undyingly true(no pun intended)
Death could not claim me. god has forsaken me, and opened my eyes. Given me heightened spiritual awareness and showed me truth about things around me.
I'm not saying its because I believe in God this happened.. This has nothing to do with religion. It has to do with a high power, a greater love. you can call it what you want but it is certainly out there. and if you search YOU WILL find.
There are things I still don't understand and things I still get upset about. but at the end of the day I can finally rest easy knowing anything can happen and its for a good reason. things are gunna stuck like crazy for you to get to the good stuff. i'll go through bad things to get the good things, because its always beneficial.
I forget many of the expericenes ive had since being in and waking up from the coma. but man was it an eye opener. I came out with so much spiritual wisdom. and freedom of my soul. I was at complete peace when I woke up.
seeing friends and family was so overwhelming, it was like finding something at the back of your closet you've lost for years and almost forgot about. I couldn't believe how I had a chance to see them all again. it was such a overwhelming feeling of joy and love. the energy around me in the room when I first woke up was like nothing id ever felt before.
I was obviously sedated and severely confused, couldn't really talk, walk or move for that matter. but I could feel everything.
when I was in my coma I couldn't hear anything nor feel any kind of touch. but let me tell you whenever a loved one was around I could sense it. I knew how they felt what they were speaking about I could feel it through my heart.
ive also realized the damage my death would have caused and the anguish and sadness. I realized it would have flipped lives around completely. I realized although the coma wasn't entirely my fault-or was it?
I realized how selfish it could have been. I carried everyones heavy fears for a while just seeing how destroying losing me would have been. ive been seeing thing more wholly. I can see my ego a lot now. how full of myself I can be.That ego self is coming into the light and im dealing with it. I want to cleanse myself of any ego that tries to come through now.
I spent so much time with the holy spirit. I wished it could have lasted forever.
im back to become selfless and give up my ego to be a part of whole to be with friends and family , love others and give my energy into things that are healthy and meaningful. I don't want to waste life. I want my actions to follow this aslong as I live.
all along I was looking in the wrong places. I wanted my life to be better, I wanted things to workout my way. I wanted more things more money certain friends I wanted to spend my time how I wanted I thought that would make me happy but instead I was wrong.
happiness is giving up those thoughts feelings and walking on a better cleaner healthy path to enlightenment. some times you need to be shaken from old ways of thinking and harsh old patterns to lay your life down and give yourself up. give up your wants and needs. for the needs and wants of others. to give instead of take. to love instead of hate. to rest your thirsty ego for a life that is much better. because that is what we truly want.
I want to start this by saying that I am selfish. I have taken things to far ego wise. and I realize the truth of the matter. until I give up my needy self loathing attitude I can take on the attributes I truly own. to give up my sorry old ways. and self damaging old image. for the one that's chosen for me.
I kid you not a woodpecker just purched up outside the apartment im in . the spiritual meaning of a woodpecker is: "It is time to really pay attention because opportunity is has come knocking along with it. It is signaling you that great changes are happening in your life and it is up to you to seize the moment. Whether it is the renewal of an old project, the finishing of a new project or simply a serendipitous meeting with someone in your life. Whatever way you perceive it know that the door is wide open for you right now and that success is your for the asking." http://spirit-animals.com/woodpecker/
isn't that just MINDBLOWINLY AWESOME. SEE WHAT I MEAN.
enough closing my spirit off. and turning off my energy. its time to shed the ego and walk in the path a truly want. again it will be a climb but man im betting it is worth the while. im blessed for this opportunity to let go of negative energies. THANK YOU LIFE.
I was pretty much reborn. Not joking. A second chance at life, it was definitely not my time to go. I came out of my coma a completely different person. so spiritually filled. I'm still shocked im back on earth after that. I still struggle with things. but I came to realize that no matter what happens im always backed up by the holy spirit and my guides. what a blessing.
I don't know what it is but I am ment to be on this earth. in this life. for a very big reason. even though I reject the truth of it. I wasn't aloud to take an easy way out. I've learnt that im here not only to learn and survive as an individual but I am here as a whole a part of this earth for greater good. Something beyond myself, that is undyingly true(no pun intended)
Death could not claim me. god has forsaken me, and opened my eyes. Given me heightened spiritual awareness and showed me truth about things around me.
I'm not saying its because I believe in God this happened.. This has nothing to do with religion. It has to do with a high power, a greater love. you can call it what you want but it is certainly out there. and if you search YOU WILL find.
There are things I still don't understand and things I still get upset about. but at the end of the day I can finally rest easy knowing anything can happen and its for a good reason. things are gunna stuck like crazy for you to get to the good stuff. i'll go through bad things to get the good things, because its always beneficial.
I forget many of the expericenes ive had since being in and waking up from the coma. but man was it an eye opener. I came out with so much spiritual wisdom. and freedom of my soul. I was at complete peace when I woke up.
seeing friends and family was so overwhelming, it was like finding something at the back of your closet you've lost for years and almost forgot about. I couldn't believe how I had a chance to see them all again. it was such a overwhelming feeling of joy and love. the energy around me in the room when I first woke up was like nothing id ever felt before.
I was obviously sedated and severely confused, couldn't really talk, walk or move for that matter. but I could feel everything.
when I was in my coma I couldn't hear anything nor feel any kind of touch. but let me tell you whenever a loved one was around I could sense it. I knew how they felt what they were speaking about I could feel it through my heart.
ive also realized the damage my death would have caused and the anguish and sadness. I realized it would have flipped lives around completely. I realized although the coma wasn't entirely my fault-or was it?
I realized how selfish it could have been. I carried everyones heavy fears for a while just seeing how destroying losing me would have been. ive been seeing thing more wholly. I can see my ego a lot now. how full of myself I can be.That ego self is coming into the light and im dealing with it. I want to cleanse myself of any ego that tries to come through now.
I spent so much time with the holy spirit. I wished it could have lasted forever.
im back to become selfless and give up my ego to be a part of whole to be with friends and family , love others and give my energy into things that are healthy and meaningful. I don't want to waste life. I want my actions to follow this aslong as I live.
all along I was looking in the wrong places. I wanted my life to be better, I wanted things to workout my way. I wanted more things more money certain friends I wanted to spend my time how I wanted I thought that would make me happy but instead I was wrong.
happiness is giving up those thoughts feelings and walking on a better cleaner healthy path to enlightenment. some times you need to be shaken from old ways of thinking and harsh old patterns to lay your life down and give yourself up. give up your wants and needs. for the needs and wants of others. to give instead of take. to love instead of hate. to rest your thirsty ego for a life that is much better. because that is what we truly want.
I want to start this by saying that I am selfish. I have taken things to far ego wise. and I realize the truth of the matter. until I give up my needy self loathing attitude I can take on the attributes I truly own. to give up my sorry old ways. and self damaging old image. for the one that's chosen for me.
I kid you not a woodpecker just purched up outside the apartment im in . the spiritual meaning of a woodpecker is: "It is time to really pay attention because opportunity is has come knocking along with it. It is signaling you that great changes are happening in your life and it is up to you to seize the moment. Whether it is the renewal of an old project, the finishing of a new project or simply a serendipitous meeting with someone in your life. Whatever way you perceive it know that the door is wide open for you right now and that success is your for the asking." http://spirit-animals.com/woodpecker/
isn't that just MINDBLOWINLY AWESOME. SEE WHAT I MEAN.
enough closing my spirit off. and turning off my energy. its time to shed the ego and walk in the path a truly want. again it will be a climb but man im betting it is worth the while. im blessed for this opportunity to let go of negative energies. THANK YOU LIFE.
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