its beautiful

my search started a while ago. my fight made me realize i was on a search. this certain kind of mission is defs scary like a man going to afganistan.. frightening and unpredictable. everyday you dont know what your going to wake up to what kind of conditions your in or how things may turn out. good or bad though, you wake up ready to fight ready for battle or ready for peace and love. its love hate with you. your my everything and nothing at the same time. fear and love. both are strong..how could one feel both at the same time? so much power it amazes me!