definatly lost. since forever.

i've lost everything. my home. my family. my boyfriend. my bestfriend.

is there a way to tell you everything. without actually telling you anything. i dont want to talk because i dont want to be hurt. i dont want to put any of my energy into life. afraid to get pushed around. afraid to lose more than i already have. i feel like if i dont make a move. i wont lose anything else. i want to keep what i have. because im tired of being sad to lose things. anyways thats where im at. its movie time..seeya.