its like you dont like it when im doing good.

uh i hate doing what you say just to make you happy. i hate that your mad when im doing well. i hate that i feel i have to confide to your ways. to your oppions. to your desisions. im tired of you leading me. like the game simon says .. or fallow the leader. exept your too good at the same and i keep loosing..and i always have to play over and over. im tired of you always winning. im tired of you playing this game and haning it over my head. i wanna be my own person. stand on my own two feet.

my life is so push and pull. could it ever be settled? because i really want it to be. i want to be a grounded person. i crave to be still, calm and quite...yet i cant get that to happen.

i guess i should sush and be happy...because it could be a ton worse than it is.