from the end to the begining and summer
i havent blogged in forever. and i have so much to blog about, but im gunna go slow, and work my way up.
i find that the best way to blog is to start babbling on and on because when random things come out, i have great ideas.
it's september 12th 2011. sschool started a week ago. for everyone else that is. you see.. i got kick out of school for posection and intoxitcation of drugs last year, right before the end of the first semi. they kicked me out for the school year of grade 10. they said come back and talk to us about next year. "we may alouw you to come back for grade 11 in this school district"
for the rest of the school year i got homeschooled. but i failed horribly.
its grade 11 year, although for me and my homeschooling skills... its grade 10 again.
i want to get into a new school this year. start fresh ya know? although i have met many good and supportive frriends this year (who i will talk about tons later on in my blog and in other blogs i write) im stoked to be around teachers and friends. i stoked to be busy with my time and energy ..FINALLY. and im more than excited to be doing anything other than pissing off my family. school is good for me, even if im not and A OR B OOR C student. my brain loves routine and organization. even if i cant compepte whats in the drawrwer atleast i know where it is and how to go about with it.
im excited to be set free from my summer parrtying life. i had so much fun this summer dont get my wrong. and my party habiits are not like they were when i got kicked out, and i dont have problems with it like before, im just excited to live sum wut normal.
in feel like im pushing everything so fast. like i have to get a job pay for things think about a house and a boyfriend. but going to school will get my mind off so many things that dont matter.
i am so scared to enter again into highschool. when i left, i never wanted tpo be sucked into the same stuff again. and beffore this summer, i promised i would over come it all. and so i did. im proud of my struggle this summer to defeat the fool of fear inside myself. ther were times when i failed myself. and there were times when i failed my family and friends. but there were times when the pratice patience and justice came though on many levels.
i had over come one fear. a fear of a beast that haunts my family, this nasty beast that lingers on my sholder on my backpack over my ears is called addiction. i waited for summer to come, i knew something would happen, and all the sudden... nothing happened. i didnt crave booze, i didnt want to do drugs. 50% i was sober for! 50% of nights.
im proud of all this. this summer has been the most hard working. i dare you to understand.
what a great summer. thanks to the people, the sun, the good memories and great start to school
***********************
this summer, i...
fell in love
met amazing people that i will never forget
partied hardy
fought myself for myself
leanred to understand a different level of respect
and learned that lady gaga was born this way...haha just kidding that was a joke.
but anyway. listen to "id drink to that - Rhanna" its good. and lovely and summery and strong. it helps me go on, and learn to relax and be happy and peaceful. - things we should be doing all the time :)
i find that the best way to blog is to start babbling on and on because when random things come out, i have great ideas.
it's september 12th 2011. sschool started a week ago. for everyone else that is. you see.. i got kick out of school for posection and intoxitcation of drugs last year, right before the end of the first semi. they kicked me out for the school year of grade 10. they said come back and talk to us about next year. "we may alouw you to come back for grade 11 in this school district"
for the rest of the school year i got homeschooled. but i failed horribly.
its grade 11 year, although for me and my homeschooling skills... its grade 10 again.
i want to get into a new school this year. start fresh ya know? although i have met many good and supportive frriends this year (who i will talk about tons later on in my blog and in other blogs i write) im stoked to be around teachers and friends. i stoked to be busy with my time and energy ..FINALLY. and im more than excited to be doing anything other than pissing off my family. school is good for me, even if im not and A OR B OOR C student. my brain loves routine and organization. even if i cant compepte whats in the drawrwer atleast i know where it is and how to go about with it.
im excited to be set free from my summer parrtying life. i had so much fun this summer dont get my wrong. and my party habiits are not like they were when i got kicked out, and i dont have problems with it like before, im just excited to live sum wut normal.
in feel like im pushing everything so fast. like i have to get a job pay for things think about a house and a boyfriend. but going to school will get my mind off so many things that dont matter.
i am so scared to enter again into highschool. when i left, i never wanted tpo be sucked into the same stuff again. and beffore this summer, i promised i would over come it all. and so i did. im proud of my struggle this summer to defeat the fool of fear inside myself. ther were times when i failed myself. and there were times when i failed my family and friends. but there were times when the pratice patience and justice came though on many levels.
i had over come one fear. a fear of a beast that haunts my family, this nasty beast that lingers on my sholder on my backpack over my ears is called addiction. i waited for summer to come, i knew something would happen, and all the sudden... nothing happened. i didnt crave booze, i didnt want to do drugs. 50% i was sober for! 50% of nights.
im proud of all this. this summer has been the most hard working. i dare you to understand.
what a great summer. thanks to the people, the sun, the good memories and great start to school
***********************
this summer, i...
fell in love
met amazing people that i will never forget
partied hardy
fought myself for myself
leanred to understand a different level of respect
and learned that lady gaga was born this way...haha just kidding that was a joke.
but anyway. listen to "id drink to that - Rhanna" its good. and lovely and summery and strong. it helps me go on, and learn to relax and be happy and peaceful. - things we should be doing all the time :)
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