i wanna be a movie
watched the cutest love movie today. it was cute. i want to watch it forever and ever. but then i was thinking, i am living the greatest love story...with Christ.
as much as i dont feel love, and instead being blind by love im blind to love. i still have love.
what the fucking hell is love anyway? its not a toy ( HINT WORLD) its not a song or a dance or a show. its a peice of heart made beautiful to yourself in your arms. its safe pasture and welcoming land, its recovered by faih and tears and terror, its long lasting and forever kept. love never leaves, even when your in love with someone else. love-happens to the unloved. well it should anyway.
i am not a believer in love, nor do i like it or want it or understand its power. i actually hate love. because it holds me way too tight. there is no breathing air. there is no care free additude, there is commmitment and heartbreak, i dont think i need my heart broken anymore nit was when i was a child.
i can feel my heart turning cold as i type this on my computer, although the sun is shining in the window beside me and love fills the room and my mind. if i stop typing my hands shake. whatever im writing, isnt for me i guess. well the parts about me are mine. but the message is for you, or somebody. take it or leave it. wont bother me at all!
as much as i dont feel love, and instead being blind by love im blind to love. i still have love.
what the fucking hell is love anyway? its not a toy ( HINT WORLD) its not a song or a dance or a show. its a peice of heart made beautiful to yourself in your arms. its safe pasture and welcoming land, its recovered by faih and tears and terror, its long lasting and forever kept. love never leaves, even when your in love with someone else. love-happens to the unloved. well it should anyway.
i am not a believer in love, nor do i like it or want it or understand its power. i actually hate love. because it holds me way too tight. there is no breathing air. there is no care free additude, there is commmitment and heartbreak, i dont think i need my heart broken anymore nit was when i was a child.
i can feel my heart turning cold as i type this on my computer, although the sun is shining in the window beside me and love fills the room and my mind. if i stop typing my hands shake. whatever im writing, isnt for me i guess. well the parts about me are mine. but the message is for you, or somebody. take it or leave it. wont bother me at all!
Love is kindness and support and encouragement and a shoulder to cry on and hugs on a sad day. And love is sadness and hurt and anger and despair and tears. Love cannot conquer all, even if there is love, hurt and mistrust can step on it and try to crush it, and sometimes love will overcome, and sometimes it won't. Love is not the master of all, but love can be amazing and make you feel like a queen...that's the love I love.
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